I’ve been MIA lately dealing with emotions and what not…
I have this really bad tendency of shutting down from everything when I’m depressed. I give up everything I shouldn’t like eating clean, working out, writing and worst of all ignoring lots of people.
Its hard to stick to a healthy lifestyle when you feel like shit, and this is where my weight starts fluctuating which causes me to -for a short long while- give up on everything and I end up hating myself even more.
I used to be overweight, and I lost about 20kg -I measure weight lost by jean size not by numbers. I usually get on a scale once every month because those damn numbers make me OCD in a way that is neither cute or mentally stable- I’m 6kg from my ultimate goal. It’s not much but whenever I get close for some reason I get depressed and shut down and stop everything…its a vicious cycle!
My 2:00 am thought on Saturday was basic, just me wondering what would happen if I never give up?
I’m taking it as a challenge because I’m stubborn like that. I’m going to hit the ground running; gym at the gym 5 times a week, eat clean without cheat days and yoga -because balanced zen if bae- until New Years. No matter what I’m feeling or what I’m dealing with I will keep going just to see what happens…
So I wrote down a nice little workout plan:
- Sunday: Chest & Triceps
- Monday: Back & Biceps
- Tuesday: Cardio 35-45mins *Treadmill
- Wednesday: Legs
- Thursday: Cardio again *Spinning
- Friday: Yoga
- Saturday: Rest day
After weight training if I’m feeling up to it I’ll do 20 minutes of cardio
Workout Plan done I went grocery shopping following a list of a nutrition plan I got from my Nutritionist -shocking. I really recommend this because you get the best diet for yourself and body type as well as other specific needs in order to reach goals in a healthy way.
Yes the only reason I added this picture is because I’m so proud of how organized it is…so you should appreciate this happy accident…appreciate it I say!
“I love food, I hate feeling hungry and I loath not having something sweet” is what I said to Mr. Nutritionist. He gave me a two sweet, filling and yummy food plans. I do one for two weeks and then I do the other for two week and so on and so forth (I don’t know if I should post it because I don’t know if it’ll work for everyone, I recommend seeming someone yourself but if you want me to post it let me know in the comments below).
Diet does seem boring but I won’t stop till New Year so wish me luck/pray for me/cross your fingers/sacrifice a virgin or whatever as long as I survive.